This is another picture by my good friend Abbie. I have to say thank you again, because after everyday that Eden is with us I realize how fast she will grow and not be little anymore. I'm grateful to have these pictures to remind me always of what was.
So, I have to say thank you so much to all of you offering prayers and thoughts on my behalf. I want to let you all know that I am doing much much better and am starting to feel a little like myself again. I finally decided I couldn't just sit around waiting for some miracle, but had to get back to life. It worked, granted, I'm not going to be running a marathon anytime soon, but I am finally able to help with little things around the house, like laundry and dishes. Its amazing how those things can make you feel like you are contributing again.
For those of you who are interested I thought I would give you a brief run down of what exactly happened. I want to start by saying that if I had to do it again I would, Eden is so worth it and now I wish it would be possible again. See, before we had Eden, Alan and I decided that she would be our last. We prayed over this decision long and hard and came to the conclusion that it would be best for our family and marriage to have just Jace and Eden. This decision was confirmed as the events of Eden's birth unfolded.
I went in on the 5th of February early in the morning to Augusta Medical Center in Fishersville VA to have a routine C-Section. Jace was born this way and to be honest I wasn't really that worried, I recovered from Jace's delivery in a matter of days. I had the same doctor and anesthesiologist and felt good.
At around 9am they took me into the surgery room and was asked to get on the table. This is when things started out bad. My spinal had to be done twice and I have to say I don't ever want to do that again, it was very very painful. But again, I felt comforted afterwards knowing that I would be done in a matter of maybe a half an hour to forty five minutes. Eden was born at 9:01 am and they took Alan and her out of the room shortly after.
This was when things started to get not so good. During my pregnancy I had accumulated too much amniotic fluid and my uterus had been overly worked and distended. It was tired to say the least and would not contract. I bled and bled. The doctor tried multiple things to get it to do just that and it wouldn't. Finally, after giving me numerous doses of drugs and lots of blood lost, it began to work.
My doctor, was relieved, but then moved to the next problem, the tissues around the incision. They also bled out and wouldn't stop. Due to this I had to have a drain put in for the time I was in the hospital.
I was stitched up and sent to recovery not really knowing what had happened, just that it took quite a bit longer than normal. I was very sick in recovery and couldn't keep anything down. My blood pressure had to be monitored as well as my blood count (which is still being monitored). They considered giving me a transfusion, but thankfully didn't have to.
All of this has contributed to a longer recovery than I had anticipated and the news that no matter if I wanted them I could have no more children, but I'm so thankful I made it through it and am here to enjoy my two children and husband. So, yes, I would have to say it was worth it. Eden is perfect. Jace is perfect. I love Alan with all my heart and am truly grateful we have the family we do, even if there has been pain required to have gotten where we are.
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I am so happy you are starting to feel better. I know it was hard for you, but you pulled through and what a gorgeous little girl you have. I can't wait to meet her in person. We miss you guys so much and are anticipating you coming back to Cali! Thank goodness for doctors and blessings and prayers. I am glad you have the two little ones you do and that they are part of our family. Love you all!
Aw... I cried reading your last little paragraph. What a great attitude to have Danielle. It's hard amidst the post pregnancy hormones to remember the simple things that help to keep us sane. Especially when recovering from what you experienced. I'm glad you're feeling better and can't wait until all of this sickness is gone and we can get together!
oh man! how scary, and you are amazing. What a blessing to have these two kids, and what a price- but they will love you all the more for it too. I'm so glad you are getting better!
Oh girl! That's so scary! I hope you're feeling better and enjoying your new little one. What a blessing that you made it through.
She looks a lot like 3 little girls I knew once. :-)
Continue to do what you know you should, listen to your inner self and all will be well.
That time out chair will be warm for a bit.
Wow. What a blessing to have these two little ones and that you are okay. YOur little Eden is so darling and beautiful. Good luck with everything!!
As for the hats, I got the pattern from etsy. She was very specific in her copyright policy, so I can't give it to you, but it's only 6.99 and then the cost of the yarn and hooks. The pattern requires 4 different sized crochet hooks. I love it, though, so easy to read and understand.
Here's the link to the seller. I bought the crazy easy newsboy cap (it's green in the pic)
GOod luck!
I had no idea you had such a hard time WoW!! Why is it so hard sometimes. But, I am with you so worht it!!!
I hope you get to feeling better soon. I am so sorry for all that happened, but it sounds like you are on the road to feeling better and enjoying your wonderful family!
Eden is beautiful! I love the picture of Jace holding her! He is either taking his big brother gig very seriously or thinking "what did you get us into?" I'm glad you are feeling better. I'm not going to lie though, I am going to try to forget your story, because it seems that the closer I get to my due date, the more stories I hear and at this rate I am not going to be ready for this baby to come out for 10 more years!!!!!!! I made the mistake of reading the "week after delivery" section in my what to expect book. Bad idea! This little boy better be the cutest thing ever!!!!!!
oh my goodness i had no ide, i didn't even know you had another kid, man , am i out of the loop. oops. but i am glad you two are both alright and how Heavenly Father knows everything even to comfort us before it all happens and after. love ya . she's beautiful.
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